I can only lie so well

it was exactly one year and 12 hours ago… 365 and a half days ago…
eight thousand seven hundred and seventy two hours ago…

since the night when you came
with nothing but a distracted look on your face.
silly me because i was angry that you were late for dinner
and that you didn’t seem to have bothered getting a present.
silly me because little did i know that was the least of my worries…
that you were planning to shatter my whole world that night.
oh, wait!… that you were not really planning on shattering
but you did anyway…
unintentionally, you say.

it isn’t your fault that you fell out of love
you tried to rationalize that we outgrew each other…
i couldn’t really think but i knew i didn’t outgrow anyone or anything.
but that doesn’t really matter…
you already left before you said you were leaving.

i have tried rewriting my life and i have succeeded up to some level…
i do not cry at nights and the empty feeling comes lesser every day.
i do not talk about you as often as i used to, although you still come up every so often.
but i have made new memories … away and apart from the five years that always
had you painted in every scenario.

i am even possibly in a vague manner in love with someone.
and someone is possibly, vaguely perhaps in love with me.
if you knew, you would have been proud that i am almost over you.
the way you wanted me to be… the way you wished i will be.

it was exactly one year and 12 hours ago… 365 and a half days ago…
eight thousand seven hundred and seventy two hours ago…

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