What if again?

I wonder when the next steps appeared
and I wonder why i didn’t take them.
Somewhere I made up my own excuses
and lived by all of them.
I never believed in regretting, nor shame, nor emptiness
but i felt them and i feel them still.
Deep tinges of sadness,
a lifetime of what could have been.
I wonder if your regrets leave you empty or just longing for more? I find myself sometimes wondering what if I had? What would be? I found among some papers today thinking how could this life be all there is and then…. I took a deep breath and realized it isn’t over yet…
Words from the heart always touching… very nice
Your greatness awaits you!